is it that hard?

damn it. is it that hard? i've been thinking about something that happened recently. does anybody know what a present really mean? a present means that, no matter where the person where, he thought of you, and therefore bought you a present; cause you were present in his mind. wouldn't you accept a present a friend brings you from another country, no matter how big or small, shiny or dull is? do you know how fucked up is when you buy something for someone and that person declines it? "i don't want it." i'll be honest, my friend... that brought my whole world down that day in such an easy way; made me feel like shit. i mean, it's ok to understand that a person doesn't like presents, but to coldly tell you that she doesn't want it? call me nitpicker, but that's fucked up. that's been chewing me up inside for a while. i was trying to let it go, but i couldn't.

another thing. you have this friend of yours [a very good friend] and he's been out of the country for 28 days, but you perfectly knows that he arrives today. what's the first thing you do? exactly. it's obvious. i was pretty amazed when i received lots of calls, even overseas, but none of them was from my "friend." wow. thank you, i had a very good flight anyways. but you know what? w/e. i don't feel like talking about it anymore. not right now.

in a last note, i want to let you know that if you wanted to push me away, hah, you did it pretty well. i have to say that it was the wrong way 'cause i was expecting something more mature; i mean, almost 20 years old... i think i'm wayyy past the "i won't talk to him and he'll get the picture" shit. i believe i'm strong enough to take that shot. i was expecting a face to face conversation, like normal and grown up adults that we are, but who cares; it worked out pretty good for you, didn't it? but i think you pushed me too far away, 'cause despite everything, i'm your friend. but it's all good, my friend. it's all good.

p.s.: how convenient. i was just listening to 'Never Gonna Be Alone,' by Nickelback from their last album, 'Dark Horse,' which i have to add up that it's very good. listen to it. seriously. take a peak.

Eurotrip!

So yes. I finally went to Europe. I went to Barcelona, Madrid, Cadiz, Sevilla, and Paris, as well. I went to London, as well, but only for my scale. Europe is just incredible; amazing. All of the cities were awesome, and each one of them has its own beauty, culture, history; they cannot be compared. But I do have to say that the city I felt in love with was Barcelona, my first destination. It fits my personality pretty well. It's so bohemian. The nightlife, the bars... oh, the bars... impressive. I have never been to a city with such great bars. The one I liked the most was 'El Bosque De Les Fades' (or 'El Bosque De Las Hadas,' in Spanish). It's magical. You really feel like you're in some sort of forest. I can't really explain how great it is. Catalunya is just amazing.

Next destination, Madrid. I have to admit I was skeptical with Madrid at first; I already had the image of Barcelona in my head as the only city I liked. Don't ask. Well, Madrid happened to be one of the cities I liked the most. The second one, I must say. Because like I said, each one of them has its own beauty. And the people I met in Madrid... that just made my trip to Madrid perfect. Anita, Nuria, Bego, Andrea and the others, thank you so much for everything. You guys are great!

Next stop, Cadiz! Wow... such a great city. Did you know Cadiz is the first city of Europe? Uh huh... quite impressive. The whole city was built over the ancient city of Gadez. That's why the inhabitants of Cadiz are called Gaditanos, not Caditanos. They also have the first roman amphitheater of Spain. The beach is amazing, and I was staying in an apartment next to the beach. How cool is that, huh? =P Much love for Cadiz. And during my stopover in Cadiz, I couldn't miss the chance to go to Sevilla. Stunning city, and its female inhabitants as well ;). Gosh, I have to give the award of The City With The Most Beautiful Women in Spain. Wow! I just can't put it in words. And its monuments are very beautiful, as well.


Next city, Paris. Oh oui. La Tour Eiffel, Le Musee du Louvre, L'Arc de Triomphe, Des Champs-Elysee... the most beautiful city of my whole trip. Its history and culture are unique, and its monuments incomparable. I had such a great time in that city, but it was stained by the cold. Oh yeah; it was literally freezing. But I enjoyed my days in Paris. I just wouldn't do it again during winter. =P

After Paris, I went back to Barcelona-ona-ona, until the 12th, my departing day. I'll tell you a secret, but shh... I was gonna miss my flight that day just to stay over one more week, but I couldn't do it. Cold feet. Anyways, I can't complain at all; those were the best Christmas' vacations ever! Had too much fun. =P
Thanks to Mr. Jheds for everything. La que nos montamos, papa! hahahahahahaha